Still learning to trust and to rest…


January was quite a month.  The weather was the wildest I’ve seen in years, and still it continues into this first week of February.  So, our family routine has not been re-established since before Christmas break.  My oldest son was gone for 3 weeks to Central America, teaching for his diversity field experience, but he has safely returned.  I thought this would set us back on track for finding our routine, particularly since my middle son started back into his post-secondary classes yesterday, after getting to sleep in all of January.  However, now we have a new break for our routine….my husband is recovering from gall bladder surgery.  Thankfully, the problem was caught in time, before he developed an infection or pancreatitis or whatever….  So, he has a week to recuperate….and we are expecting another snowstorm tonight….then, I’m supposed to start a new part-time job tomorrow…my oldest son’s car battery died, and we are still trying to get back on track with finances after Christmas and changes in my unemployment payments.

In the midst of all this “out of the ordinariness”, God is stable; He is faithful; we can depend on Him.  He is forever teaching me that I can trust in Him.  He is so patient with me when I am struck with the anxieties of my humanity.  His words and kind, compassionate, and calm….telling me He’s got this, and this other thing, and all the disruptive disturbances to our “routine”.  Somehow, I continue to have those moments when I’m fearful for one reason or another, but over the years, the voice inside that tells me all will be okay has grown stronger and I find a peace in the midst of the uncertainties.  This is all a piece of the puzzle God is making of my life, and I am so thankful for the design of His hands that makes something beautiful out of confusion.

About Tara Lea

I'm a mom and wife first and foremost. I offer Life Coaching as well as speaking for large and small groups, while writing and teaching as opportunities become available. Writing, speaking, teaching, and coaching are my means for fulfilling my life calling of helping others fit together the pieces of their lives so they can move closer to becoming all God means for them to be.

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