“Today I saw a beauty contest brief, between a rainbow and an autumn leaf.”  

The juxtaposition of these contrasting beauties describe well my life this week. My emotions have been a roller coaster since I wrote last week, but overall, it’s been filled with much joy. 

I find I’m generally in a much better place interiorly than I’ve been for much of my adult life.  There are more evidences of happiness in my heart, even though I carry a great sadness of which I’m aware most of the time.    The difference is that I’m learning to  accept the presence of that sadness as a part of my reality, feeling the undercurrent of it, not fighting it but also not allowing it to pull me under. 

As for my goals for exercise this week, I would say i was up and down with it, as well. However, I did walk three times and go to my workout place once to do the weights. Next week, I’m keeping my goal of 3 days of walking and 2 of weights. 

If you think of me during the week, please lift me up in prayer.  Godbis at work in me. I know that I’m finding that my joy these days is often mixed with legitimate happiness, and I’m so grateful to God for His transforming power at work in my life.