I’ve not found many things in life worth arguing to prove my point or establish my way is best. Most of my life I’ve kept my mouth shut when others have disagreed, unless a subject has been vital to life and to following Christ.
Many times, I have allowed my needs to be walked all over for the sake of letting someone else have their way, putting them first because what they wanted seemed more important to them than what I wanted. I have had to learn in the last several years that sometimes I have to draw a boundary to protect myself because there are times that what I want is actually what is best for me, so letting the “other” have their way will end up hurting me in some way.
This might mean protecting my time that I need for rest or reflection or to accomplish tasks that I absolutely have to do. Sometimes it means not eating certain foods because those foods will make me ill. Still other instances have brought me to have to step back from a friendship because being in relationship with that person has proved to be detrimental to my emotional health and overall more hurtful than is healthy for me to continue.
Still, with all that being said, there are relationships that are so important to me, people I love so much, that I allow my priorities and feelings to be hi-jacked and decimated by theirs. I put them first, out of love. I let them have their points of view, their choices, their way of doing life, and I set aside my own, even when my own might be something I truly need to be healthy (such as time to sleep or think…).
All this to say, my schedule for healthier choices has been thrown off a bit by my failure to insist on my own needs. I’m not sure if this is right or wrong in the grand scheme of life, but I’m surrendered to being transformed by God no matter what, in all things.
As for my health journey, exercise has been off this week. My goal for the week ahead is to get back on track with it as well as to cut pop back out of my life. I’ll report back here next Thursday.