Bouncing forward from those high school days and my first psychology class, I took on the psychology minor in my undergraduate studies. My major was Christian Education. I feel it was the true beginning of discovering all that had shaped me into who I was and learning how to grow and become who God intended me to be from the start.

One of my close girl friends was a psychology major. For one of her courses, she had to determine her worldview (a particular philosophy of life or conception of the world). I didn’t have that course, but I decided to think through what my thoughts were on my view of the world. I came to embrace my primary worldview as being God creates order from chaos.

Over the years, I’ve thought through my view numerous times, to see if it still made sense and rang true for me…and it has. This view of life has helped to keep me grounded and to see the big picture beyond the details of day to day challenges, suffering, and uncertainty. The idea that God creates order from chaos laid the foundation for seeing life as a puzzle or mosaic, observing how all the pieces can come together to create a beautiful whole.

It reminds me of an Impressionist painting like Water Lillies by Monet. When I’ve had the chance to see it, or other Monet paintings, in person, I’ve compared the difference in viewing the painting up close versus across a room.

If you stand very close, you can see all the individual brush strokes, and though you can see beauty, artistry, and talent in all the details, you can’t see the true image. You have to stand back from it to capture the full magnificence of the entire work of art, to see the order in the chaos, how all the pieces fit…