Here we are a week past the official holiday season, and I’m trying to get back to my health pursuits. I accomplished my goal of maintaining through the holidays and somehow lost 1 1/2 pounds. Yesterday , I started back in with recording my food on My Fitness Pal (which is a great app, btw). I also meandered around Kroger for about two hours trying to buy healthy foods and restock my cupboards after they were decimated by holiday celebrations. So, that slow walk counted as exercise …yay! 😉

What didn’t go so well yesterday was trying to lower my carbs. After I input my breakfast into my app, I realized my two pieces of 100% whole wheat toast , with honey on one piece , exceeded my carb goal for the day. That left me fretting about everything I wanted to eat the rest of the day, knowing that even veggies have carbs, and of course, fruit has even more, being nature’s candy and all. By the time I arrived at Kroger, I relented and had a latte from Starbucks as I shopped. Then, as I unpacked groceries, I ate pnut butter pretzels and ended up having waffles before bed.

So , I reluctantly input all my food to My fitness Pal. Thankfully, my walk through the store offset my calories so I wasn’t too much over my calorie goal, but as for carbs, I blew it. Even though I grasp the biological facts of habits and being addicted , I don’t know if I will ever fully comprehend the attachment people can have to carbs, the emotional comfort they give. But, the truth is, the “struggle is real.”

All that being said, I was feeling a bit defeated last night, until I started flitting through Instagram and Twitter. Several posts reminded me that just because I’m not perfect , it doesn’t mean I’m not trying to change, pursuing transformation , still open to learning and growing and trying.

So, today I started again, or I continued. Today will be better than yesterday, and actually, yesterday was way better than the day before it…..