It’s been close to a month since I wrote here. The month was filled with heaviness as unexpected grief mingled with post holiday blues and seasonal depressed emotions. I haven’t felt like writing…for that matter, I haven’t felt like doing much more than what was necessary for each day.

My eating and exercising have been poor, not horrible, not completely awash, but rather pathetic, especially for someone trying to learn how to stave off the onset of diabetes ( being right on the borderline of type 2). But I haven’t given up completely. I’ve simply tried to be gracious with myself, giving leeway for my emotions.

I’ve learned a couple things during this time. One thing is the Keto diet isn’t the best choice for losing weight unless you are committed to sticking with that way of eating for the rest of your life. The second thing is that my emotional struggles with generalized anxiety disorder and recurrent depressive episodes are never going to completely disappear in this lifetime; therefore, my proclivity to be tempted to manage my emotions with food is always going to be a challenge.

How to proceed? Keep trying to do better, to move forward towards eating healthier, be wiser, and move more. I won’t be doing the Keto diet as I had thought, but I will lower carbs and focus on eating more whole foods as much as possible. I’ll keep taking one step at a time , as per usual.

Part of my progress depends on making adjustments to my “rule of life” plan , overall. This is a way of wellness that I have learned and involves focusing on living a balanced life. To do this, I set goals, short and long term, in the six areas of life, physical, spiritual, social, emotional , mental, and vocational. I’m currently in process of adjusting my plan to bring it up to speed to my current daily life. This is a process of evaluating my desired outcomes weighed against my current realities.

I’ve come up with some new ideas of how to find the balance I need in each of these life areas. I’ll be sharing with you here in the next couple weeks as I feel I need to keep pushing myself to write by using this avenue of accountability.

Until next time, happy 6 more weeks of winter and enjoy the super bowl (or the commercials and halftime…😂).